What I am looking for in my life

Assalamualaikum and hye readers..

One question that plays in my mind now..

"What I am looking for in my life"

The question is huntered my life because

I do not know what I am looking for in my life.

Besides looking for the straight path, I do not know what

will happen to my life if I still being a jobless..

It is a SHIT.

My days so fucking damn much..

Its Asshole.. erghhh..

Sometimes, I feel like to run away from all of this..

But until when ? It does not give me a benefit

if I run away from my problems.

In this situation, I feels like nobody could understand me

unless they face the same thing that I have.

Crying over the night. 

Feels like everything is a HARD to do.

WORST, TERRIBLE, HORRIBLE.

I want a long-term job that qualified to my

qualification. I want to have a lot of savings, property, and

doing some charity to the person who need it.

And now, I feel like to go to camping and rest my mind..

hear the sound of river and jungle..

Lying down to the earth and looked up to see the beautiful of trees.

p/s : I wish it happens